10/21/16 Notes to Myself:
I've had this painting for a while, it's been sitting in my studio with some others. Waiting for direction is how I might categorize them. Where my paintings end up is part of the experience of being an artist that I continue to find enlightening. This painting which I did about 2 years ago found a special home this week. And it was completely unexpected. You see I learned my very close friend is dying. She has 6 months left to live. And she's been like a sister to me. As I made my visits to the hospital, I found myself struggling with what to bring. One afternoon the thought of this painting came to mind. I doubted myself in the thought. Thinking maybe it's a little silly to give her a painting. But I packed it up,put it in my car and told myself I don't have to bring it in if I don't want to. Some how that gave me the room to follow through on my initial inclination. My friend loves the winter and snow. It's one of many things we have in common. I could always count on her to be celebrating the winter months when a lot of other friends would be itching for it to be over. On some of those cold snowy days we've gone cross country skiing in an adjacent field to the one captured here. As I reflected on those moments it hit me that she might not experience winter again, see the snow or go skiing. Sadness can start to fill my heart as I let this reality slowly sink in. At the same time the paintings purpose emerged. When my friend opened the package, she was so surprised and asked if it was hers to keep. I got to see the joy on her face and hear how much she loved just looking at it. She said it reminded her of cross country skiing together and of me. Nothing else needed to be said.