2/4/16 Notes to Myself:Oh how I've loved to control and have life unfold on my timeline. How stifling. My heart wants to be like the bird. Free. Trusting. Open. At the core this is how I AM! But oh, how this other system of living has impacted my creativity and art making process. And while it didn't stop it all together it severely limited my capacity to bring "myself" and my heart to my work in a productive and honest way. Control gave me this illusion of being safe. It also helped me hide from sharing my vulnerability which has been and still IS connected to my capacity for creativity.