1/14/16 Notes to Myself: I think I'd like to drown myself in "fluff". Not really! I'm thinking a lot about "honesty" and how important that is to relationships. How challenging it is to be honest with others if I can't be honest with myself. I am the most important person in my life. The one I am always with. The one most worthy of my own honesty. There's really no room for "fluff" if I want to live a good life, one that's rich and full. Sometimes it's hard to sift through the "fluff" that I've acquired. But I know that's what I need to do. And if others can't sift through their own then there's not much to build a foundation of relationship upon. I think "fluff" poisons communication. It's like a tasty filling of nothing other than illusion. There is no real ground. And oh how painful that can be when the "fluff" looses it's sweetness and the missing foundation is revealed. People get hurt, blindside and betrayed. Sometimes it's too late. And how can one expect to be heard if they don't really know what they are saying because they haven't worked through their own jar of "fluff".