10/02/15 Notes to Myself: Am I? Can I? Create from my HEART. Is there any other way? Somewhere deep down inside I think I live with this ongoing question as part of my artistic journey. It's so much like the path above. Maybe even lined by trees that reverberate beside me without interfering. And while there is space in between the trees somehow I know how to stay on the path because it is well directed. Within the soil beneath my feet rests a bond to remind me when I get scared. I'm feeling scared these days exploring with my paints. Not sure of the path or where I'm being led. Working through those fears and insecurities that want me to stop. To quit. This is what I did many years ago when I took an axe to the trees that traveled beside me. I did escape, or so it seemed for a while. It was fear that I was running from and fear that continued to chase me down. I couldn't stop then to face it. Nor did I know that all I needed to send it into oblivion was to BREATHE. I think I will focus on breathing today!