What comes to mind is how scary it is to have a “God Sized Dream”. My “God Sized Dream” is to be a self-supporting artist. A painter and the best painter I can be. I believe this is where I have some gifts but I haven’t always taken the responsibility to develop them.
Painting and drawing were the activities where I experienced hours as “seconds” for years growing up. Some might call that “flow”. I did pursue my art all the way through college and loved it, but I took a detour after graduation. I let fear and insecurity take over. Subsequently, I spent many years trying to cover up and bury what lived deep down inside me. Although, in retrospect, I have benefited from other experiences that may help me with the business aspect of being an artist.
One regret that I do have, is believing for too long that dreams are just for children. Time has taught me that burying this part of myself would never be in my best interest. And dreams can be the very things that give you life. They are necessary! I think, faith and courage are needed to go the distance. Maybe that’s why some dreams are rightfully characterized as “God Sized”. There are rough roads, the need for skills, and a willingness to persevere. Perseverance can be one of the biggest challenges as well as letting go of time, for me.
I am choosing to believe it’s never too late.
My dream is God Sized for me. I don’t know the outcome nor do I have the full picture. What I do know is that I need faith to have the courage, strength and hope to persevere and trust the original voice of my heart.